i have a tough/mod image- like, with my style, maybe not so much with my personality anymore. i wear a lot of black and a lot of boots. combat boots, mostly. i do wingtip dark eyes every time i leave my house. i have a nose ring. even if my style isn't universally loved, at least i have a style.
but really i have always always wanted to look lovely and more like a stylish princess. i don't really want to dress in sweet lolita or anything like that... but girly clothes look like shit on me. i don't even think it's my short hair or an issue of being fat/thin. i put them on and it's like. bleh.
the ONE time i wore something girly people told me how shit it looked in passive aggressive ways. well, damn. i even had long hair back then and i wasn't fat (maybe like idk 150 pounds chubby i guess)
and now that i want a real job, it's like i have to change everything about myself ALL OVER AGAIN... just when i finally feel ok picking out outfits and jewelry and makeup i have to start all over. i don't have the money to build a new wardrobe. i hate professional clothes.
i just want to have a style that i like 100% and wear it without people giving me grief over it.
whatever, guess if i have to i'll just go buy all black clothes. i'm not even joking.
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