i'm about to go to the gym. i tried to eat a little bit of fiber today, we'll see what happens. still taking the medicine, cna't be on it for more than a week tho so i'm crossing my fingers and hoping for the best

you know i looked at middleschool/early high school pics of myself and yeah i was bigger but i wasn't obese.... and in college, aside form taking steriods, i was never huge. i just. i don't know. i feel like my body perception is so warped. once a fat girl, always a fat girl. but i don't want that to apply to me. i don't know.

i am unsure about so many things lately even though i have found a new sense of self. i guess i need to remember that life changes all the time and to try to keep my criticism minimum.

cleaning out my house. getting rid of junk. it feels like it's time.

off to the gym for some cardio.